*Breathe in.... Breathe out...*
Ok, so this is my little rant. I've been developing it now for the past few months and now its gotten to an all time high. *grrr*
Christians really piss me off. They drive me CRAZY and I've had about enough now. I think I've officially lost it. And I've officially decided that if I wasn't required to associate with them, I'd probably avoid it. I have never met a group of more hypocritical, judgmental, rude, mean, and vengeful people in my LIFE!!! And these are the people representing Jesus! How can we possibly expect people to want a life following Jesus if all we do is tear each other's throats out and treat non-Christians as if they are the scum beneath our feet?!
The peak of my frustration isn't actually coming from my own situation, though I have more than enough reason for it to do so. The straw that is breaking my proverbial camel's back actually comes from someone else's life experience. And while I can take the pressure which is being exerted on me, my heart is broken for this other woman.
I recently met up with a girl I knew in high school. We were never particularly close friends, though we ran in the same group, and we started discussing life since graduation. She told me her story and as I've pondered it my anger has grown. In high school she and I went to similar churches, had the same friends, were engaged in the same activities, and took the same classes. We both come from families who have a very stable financial background and are not divorced... now I'm not saying that this implies a similar outcome, I'm just trying to give a bit of background. Having said all this, I don't know if this woman actually has a relationship with Jesus, but her statement about Christians rings true nevertheless.
Since high school she became a bartender. She needed a job to pay the bills, she said. Her church friends disapproved. They told her that she was living in a "sinful nature" and associating with "sinful people". And she told me, "I left, not because I knew what I was doing was right, not that it was wrong either, but I just couldn't stand the pressure anymore."
Afterward her life kinda went downhill. Needless to say, she doesn't attend a church at the moment. So while sitting over drinks with her my heart broke. How many people have I alienated with my legalism? How many people have I known who have felt the same way as this girl? Could she ever forgive enough to hear the truth again? But hell, why should she? I guess I'm starting to loose a bit of faith, not in Christ, but in those people who say their just like him.
*sigh* maybe I'm not an optimist after all.
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